A women in her late twenties on her way back to home from work; She is looking outside the bus window and is repeating a sentence in her mind in a music tone over and over again
I am fucked up. I am fucking fucked up!
Pay attention here, she is conversing with herself in her mind , occasionally slipping the words out in the open to the shock of other human species.
As time progresses, she takes the conversation ahead with questioning and answering herself.
Why are you fucked up today? Asks her not so fucked version
I wasted my day! And behind schedule by one more day
That’s bad but you will cover up as always.
Not this time.
Okay what else?
I guess I am in a wrong job!
Voila, change it then.
Not possible, short of required skills
Oh ok..at least you are happy with the pay.
It’s ok. It’s never enough.
That is true! Chill now set the goal tomorrow and match up!!
Cool! I am hungry
Let’s grab a pizza!!!!
Naaaeehh , I am fucked up eating junk
Ohhok.. may be a yummy cucumber sandwich at home.
Ya sounds good!
Cool we are good now!
I need to escape man! I need to run
Mountains I guess, or marsOne , you know!just settle there or a world tour.
ohok. Last one made some sense.
That’s the problem, I want to do the second one,
You need to study man, you are half past your active life.
Now you know why I am fucked up!
Yes I guess so. No problem! Late than never, study and at least get into the same domain.
Who is going to look after my kid then? You? Oh you and me are Same.. sorry!!
You are seriously fucked up!!!!!
2.5 hrs is a long journey to be the one!
Oh fine then , stop is near let’s become one and sane for others !
Ya that’s the last thing , I don’t want to be sane if it’s just for others.!
Why don’t you just be happy instead? You know it’s a choice!!!
Yes I know! I just like the rebel me sometimes. It’s good to be cool and say fucked up so many times, guess I can write a poem here!fucked up fucked up fucked up yayy uuu AAA..
Stop! Weird ! Let’s get back together then…
This women by end of her journey everyday tells herself to live in present and understand that happiness is a choice, but she is clear of her rebel thoughts. She wants to run or escape or load junk inside or just do nothing without a worry
Do you relate to her? Should she just open her rebel side to her family and world! Is she even sure that she wants her rebel nature or if it’s just her bored and empty mind looking for an adventure.
What do you think ?
To be continued..
This is just a very instant post from my side . If you don’t get it, it’s not your problem , just ignore. Cheers